It's something with Sweden ... As soon as I come back I'm constantly thinking of Jon. I don't know why. I miss him so much. I don't know but I'm feeling so alone these days! And I'm doing nearly anything to get some attention and "love" cuz what I get it's not real. No one is serious with me. I've dated a few guys now this last year. But I don't know. No one seams to want me... I guess I need to raise my standards a bit but I can't. I'm so broken I just wanna feel some love again. If only just for a wile. But I don't trust anyone. Everyone I've met lets me down. So I just gets deeper and deeper down this greave I'm in... I need someone who can bring me back up to the cerfice. I love Jon of all my heart but I need to move on and I can't. It's so hard! I'm so greatfull the shows goes so well for me. I just wish I could win a big final at some point. I got a new sponsor when we went to Poland and I'm so greatfull for that. That helped me a lot to keep fighting and that I might get noticed at some point. I fight everyday to keep my head up. In/with everything I do. I have so nice people around me who helps me through everyday. God bless u guys! But in the end of the day I'm still alone in my bed and thinking of everything I just to have and what I have today. And don't give me wrong now but I love the life I have. But I want someone to share it with. I don't think I've celebrated one victory during this last year... I also know that there is so many people who got it way worse then what I do. And like I've just said I'm so greatfull for my life and I do, do the best out of it. But I still miss my Jon terrible who always was on/by my side. I'm selfish I know! Xoxo / H

 

sex och samlevnad

23 augusti 2014 01:30

kram på dig Hannah! Du skriver verkligen en jättebra blogg. En polare till mig länkade den via facebook för ett tag sedan och nu följer jag din blogg varje dag efter jobbet. Kan lixom inte låta bli :-) Du uttrycker dig på ett väldigt unikt sätt.

Fortsätt skriva! Kram <3

/Lina

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Hannah Åkerblom

6 april 2016 14:11

Oj va snällt. Tack så mycket. Kram

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