Yesterday we were on my cousins hen night. It was a really emotional one for everyone but in different ways. For me it was a bit horrible. I was thinking how my hen night would have been. How I would have feel, the happiness and the love I would have had! I was thinking that I'll never have my night my special day, who will I ever find that I can love as much again? That I can feel the same again? I really want to be married but I can't imagine marry somebody else, I thought I could but the longer the time goes the more I realize there's only one true love. And I'm still so envious on this people that has there love with them. I'll never be truly happy again...