I hate life. I hate to live. Nothing feels good right now and life I so unfair. I have everything I ever dreamed of?!? Or? Is it worth the cost? No it's not!!! Never ever wish for anything. Cuz u just might get it!!!! But no one tells u the price. I have come a loooong way sense last year. But every time I return home I take so many steps back again. And this trip home was the worst one I have ever done. I constantly cried the whole way home. And when I got here I counting the days until I leave again. I don't want to feel this way but I do. It's been over a year but I still feel the same. Every night I go to bed and cry myself to sleep. I need a new life a new start and I'm prepared to do anything for it to happened. Everyone who reads this is gonna think I have lost my mind but I have actually find my mind and I think I need to start thinking of myself for a change and not what makes everyone els happy.
With love everyone.
Xoxo H