Why did he die before we started living??? Everyday I get reminded of him of the things we used to have. The things we should of had. I still dream of him and hoping that one day I'll wake up and everything was just a dream. Sometimes I think like that what if it's me who is dead? And I'm just dreaming my life right now? I know it's silly but sometimes it feels a little better to think like that. I miss him so much and I can't stop thinking is this my life now??? Am I ever gonna experience love again? True love? I don't think so... But I hope I'm wrong cuz without love life is not worth living. I see pictures of old couple dying together and thinking that should have been us. Living a long life together and then slowly dying together... Now I'm here alone with my thoughts and no one to share them with... My current bf is nice but he's not him he can't be and he never will be. I can't share things with him he wouldn't understand and he would get hurt and I don't want to hurt him.
Xoxo ?