I don't dream about Jon. It's very rare. I don't think I've done it for the whole year. But last night I did! And I'm scared of dreaming of him cuz it makes everything so hard when I wake up. I know he's dead but it still much harder if I dream he's alive. Anyway, my dream was really short. I was sitting in my lounge speaking to my sister who also was there. And I can't see the front door from the couch. And I hear it's someone by the door. And someone walks in and I freezes cuz it sounds exactly like Jon. The dog went mental stared running over there and crying. And then he say "Hi Darling I'm home" like he always did. I just froze totally had a heart beat on 300. Then he walks into the room and I see it's him. I tried to stand up but instead I fainted!! Cuz I got so shocked to see him. Then I waked up... It felt so real. It's un real. I want him back so badly. I thought this was gonna be easy. I was just gonna keep on living like normal. But it's not. I can't get over it I can't move on. The horses and the show helps so much. With out that I don't think I would be alive. I'm so happy I got them. But I'm so sad for what I've lost... I do have a night mare day and night! Xoxo H