It's reining ! Boring and not what I've planed. Only 6-8h left of driving but we are really early so we taking a bit longer rest here now before we doing the last few miles. We are staying at a small place right by the border. Cozy place.
But the lorry will not work proppoly still... :( going mad on this. So no heating is working as normall. And the main fuse keeps going off all the time! And it's now times like this that I'll miss Jon the most. Cuz he always knowed what to do. Sometimes it all just feels like a bad dream like it has never happened. You read about it in the paper. You hear about it from friends friends or you se it on tv. But u never think its gonna happen to you and when it does you don't belive it. The absolutely best thing with Jon was that he knew everything and knew what to do in every situation. And I wish so badly that he was here with me on this trips and could help me when problems appear. I'm really disappointed with this lorry and with the costum service. No one believes me there is a problem. And now I'm heading 2 mouths with out decent power heating and water!! That makes me upset. But at least we are in Spain soon. Just cross fingers for good weather all the time.
Lots of love from France
Xxx H

Now we are resting in south of Sweden to night we are leaving for Belgium and then we are heading down to south France and after that a short trip to Alicante. ? excited. I have been having loads of lessons recently. Have had 2 days for Maria Gretzer this week. And they all jumped really good. Films on videofy.me and Instagram @hannahakerblom follow me !!!
5 horses are following us. E Lucky 5 yro mare Nila Matell 6 yro mare. Caretto 7yro mare. Refräng 10 yro mare and Finlandia 11 yro mare.
Now I'm gonna get a few sleep less nights but it's gonna be fun. Can't wait to leave the snow behind me. Still snowing in skåne right now. Enoying. I'll keep u all updated on Instagram and Facebook (press follow) and ofc here as well.
Xxx lots of love to u all!

Packing packing and getting ready for Spain! I'm super excited for going. But it's so much to prepare and getting ready. I'm sorting out stables at the moment trying to email and getting hold of everyone important. Can't wait to be down there. I'm working like mad right now. Having loads of lessons and giving loads of lessons. I've been riding for Leif Hall Helena Persson Michel Robert and I'm gonna ride for Maria Gretzer and Lisen B Fredricsson befor I head of to Spain. It's super exciting. Down in Oliva I'm gonna take help from Björn Nagel. I'm so happy that I've meet all this people during last year and everyone els I've get to know.
Today someone called me a professional for the first time. "You riding like a professional" ?? That made me really happy. So maybe I'm on my way to success ... I still have so much more to learn and way to go. But I made a huge step last year and I hope to be able to compete more and more abroad. Get better and better horses and one day be in one of the groups in the Swedish lands team.
Last year was my focus on just to recover and getting back on my feats. This year im gonna focus on my riding and how to get better. A better rider!
Xoxo everyone. Se u soon.
Xxx
Lillan on the pic trying out the heat in Spain ?

I had the pleasure to be able to ride for Michel Robert. He has been in the absolut top for 44 years. He is a thru horse man. A horse whisper. 5h of position training over 2 days. Boring??? Maybe? But god damn as good! We all need that once in a wile. I'm full of inspiration and ideas of how things should be like. If I can make it I don't know but I'll give it a try. I believe I can! "You need to get to know your horse" "I don't speak your languages but I speak to your horse " and that was thru. He spook to my horse and she loved him. I am shocked. And amazed. "Move your hand forward, let go of the outside range, bring your feats back, look in the roof!" We were riding without hand without legs and looked somewhere els. And still manage to get our horses to do what we wanted. I'm impressed! I will think about all of this, take notice and learn from it.

An insperation! For me, he was. For others? Maybe, maybe not!
I have heard a lot laghtly that people se me as an insperation. I'm pleased to hear that. I love to inspire people! And that's why I got this blog so people from all over the world can read understand and get inspired from me, my experience in life, and from what I do! Maybe I help someone to get up in the morning. Maybe I save someonce life. Or maybe you just get through your day a bit easier. I heard the other that "look what you have become! Se how far you have come. How much u have learned. And how great you have become!" "Don't think how long the road is. Just think how far u have gone so far"
And that's thru. I've gone a long way even that the road is still long to go. But everyday I getting on step closer. I fight! I fight for life. I fight for the life I want. I fight for one day to become great. To be the best. Other people makes it so why wouldn't I? I most belive. And belive in myself. I can do this. I'll do this. I'll succeed !!! I'll learn from my mistakes. I'll survive.
If you have a rough day? Think different , think what was good even if it was just your lunch. Or a funny comment on fb. And keep that in your mind and forgett the rest. Learn from your mistakes but forgett and move on as quick as possible. You have to look after your own happiness. Even when your life sucks.

I hope I have inspired you even more now. And if u like, send me a message and tell me if I inspire you or helping you with your life. I'll like to know. Cuz that will inspire me even more and help me back.

Lots of love to you all!
Xxx H

It's been a few days now! But I've been fine not to sad loads to do and getting ready for Spain. But tonight I hade a moment. I've been watching Grey's Anatomy season 5 episode 22 witch is the one were Issi Stevens is getting married. The same day she founds out that she is gonna die! The wedding is so beautiful and absolutely stunning!!! Her dress is perfect and the church is full of purple and pink flowers with loads of candles. It's a dream wedding!!! My dream wedding!!! And then I turn a bit selfish again and thinking about my wedding that should have been last summer. And then I start crying cuz Jon s not here and I didn't get my dream wedding!!! I do want to get married so badly. But I want to get married to only one person who doesn't exist any more. And that is so heart breaking you can't understand. And I asking myself everyday why we didn't get married strait away?! Why wait? If u love someone and want to get married. Do it!!! You never now if you gonna be alive tomorrow?! The longer the time passes the more afraid I get of dying. Cuz I don't want to die alone. At least Jon wasn't alone and it was so quick. But who says I'm gonna be that lucky? My biggest dream in life is not to be the best rider ever! Or winning the Olympics! It is to get a big fabulous wedding and be in a happy marriage with a beautiful husband who I love and who loves me over everything in the world! That's my biggest dream and I thought until a year ago I had founded it!!! Life is short people. Take care of eatch other!
Love u all
Xoxo H

For one year ago... At 20:00 (CET) I walked up to the shower and thought for myself that I had have a really awful day! I had no idea how bad it was really gonna be ... 21:25 I saw the worst I could ever think about happened! About 45 min later I had to make the worst phone call a parent could ever receive! 22:30 they declared him dead!!! That was with out question the worst day of my life!!! I tried to save him, I tried!!!! It's been a year! But it's ONLY just a year!
I wanna say thanx to all you guys that has been giving me and my family a thought today. On this awful horrible day! Thanx for all the messages! And I do really hope for a better year. With out all of you it had been so hard. But you have helped me up when I've fallen! Thank you!
I love you all!!!
Xxx H

I just wanted to say Thank you to my whole team! Family in Sweden and UK! Friends and Fans. My lovely students! My sponsors! And Helsingehus and Perex bygg! For this year!!! It has been hard but with out all of u I would not be standing here. So thank you for helping me through the days! Keeping me busy. And listening to me when I'm upset, sad or angry! This year has been rough on us all but it has made us better people! We have learned what's important in life and to not take anything for granted. We only live once and we have no idea for how long. Make every day count. Make the best out of everyday/thing, but live like there is a tomorrow! Take the chances you get. But don't do things that doesn't make u happy. Stop with all diets. Eat what u want but exercise as u eat!!
Everything happens for a reson!
I love u all!
Have a great New Year's Eve!
It's a new year with new possibilities.
Next year might not be better but hopefully easier!
Xoxo H

A funny thing happened on Christmas Day evening. We were in the que to the night club and have 2 30+ gents in front of us. And one of them turns around and present himself and ask for our names. Politely we shake there hands and presents us as Jennie and Hannah. Then he ask for our last names... We thought a few seconds and then decides to lie.. so we say Ericsson! The other guy turns around and say.. No u don't !! We look a little bit suprice and ask him what are names were.. -I can't remember but I do know it's not Ericsson ! He say. And how do u know then? Well I do know your dad is Olov. He say. Then he turns to the first guy who looked totally lost and confused and said. - this to are the heirs of Söderhamn! - it's that thru? He say. -Yes and she (points on me) are a really good rider who drives lorries to. And she is good to (and points on Jennie) !
Lol! I just thought that was really funny. Ok that our town is not that big but it's still impressive that people know and got an eye on things. It totally made my day anyway!
The clock is now 1:40 am and I'm not tiered for anything. I've just finish a run on a few km. didn't do to much cuz I'm start getting a cold on. So I'll be careful and thinking of Jon who also was having a cold this time last year! I'm constantly thinking right now, "this time last year!" And it's horrible to think like that cuz it was nothing I've could av done... And that makes me sad... I'm not ready to let go yet... :'(
I'm gonna try to sleep but I'm not to hopefull. Last night I feal a sleep 4:30 and the night befor 5 am so anything befor that is an improvement.
Xoxo happy new year folks! Xxx